Hi everyone, I thought I'd start by welcoming you all to this new venture.
My name is Lesley-Anne, I am a stay at home to Master fairy, Wife to Mr Fairy and a student of psychology - my end goal is to do my counselling.
I have always been the big kid, the one who was laughed at and teased because I was the 'fat kid' it hurt to hear this, especially from an early age. When I hit puberty I ballooned and nothing I did really helped me to lose weight, so I comfort ate. I was in size 20 clothes at the age of 16. It wasn't until I was 18 or 19 I found out I had Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) it's a hateful, silent, illness that affects more women than I thought. I knew then that it was going to be even harder to lose weight as a result.
I was fed up of the - just exercise and cut down on your food intake, do this ... do that.... - ever heard those words and just wanted to punch those people in the face? Yea, so did I.
In 2009, I fell pregnant - it was a huge shock, I didn't think I could get pregnant and here I was all of a sudden expecting. I lived with my parents and ate weight watchers meals and actually lost 10lbs, but after he was born the weight piled on. No matter what did I couldn't shift the weight. Eat well, walk, no sweets Tec. I couldn't sustain it. To be honest I wasn't in the right head space, I just wanted to enjoy my beautiful baby boy. In fact I gave up!
It wasn't very long after master fairy was born that I found out I was pregnant, another shock! Unfortunately this pregnancy ended and again I piled on the pounds through comfort eating. I had never felt so down and in the dumps, I was not in the mood to lose weight. Over the next year and a half I miscarried 3 more times (a year between the third and fourth) and ate my way through my emotions. In January 2013 I decided to really try and I cut out ... EVERYTHING! I lost 20lbs really quickly and felt like I was getting somewhere, but I also felt so restricted and was not enjoying my food ... not the way you want to be. I also started Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred ... gosh that was hard work! But I could see my body changing.
But my hard work was ruined quite quickly. At the end of February I started Clomid, and felt so awful for the rest of my time on it ( eight months) that what I had lost was back on ... plus extra. It was awful. The medication had made me feel so ill I could hardly make it up the stairs without feeling light headed and dizzy. I was so angry with myself for letting my health get so bad, but I was so determined to get pregnant I didn't care, I didn't care that I ate my weight in biscuits or chocolate, I didn't care that I was stuffing myself into my clothes, I didn't even care that I could hardly walk around my house never mind exercise.
Still I did nothing! I don't understand how I could be like that, how I could let myself go so badly and not care! I hated myself, my body and the situation I was in.
In April 2014 I had an appointment with an IVF doctor (I hadn't been able to get pregnant in over a year and as Clomid didn't work this was the next thing) Mr Fairy and I waited for nearly 2 hours. Only to be told that she wouldn't consider me for IVF until I lost at least 3 stone. I was heartbroken😢 but guess what? ... You guessed it I DID NOTHING!!! Why? Who knows.
Finally in August 2014 I had had enough. I was changing myself. I pulled out my, rather dusty, copy of the 30 Day Shred and I put it on. I started to use my Shred group on Facebook properly, I posted pictures everyday ... believe me they weren't pretty!they were sweaty messes. I posted on Instagram (laburnett11)and I made myself do it everyday!
I worked out 6 days a week, Sunday's off, and I bought more Jillian Michaels DVDs. I was in love. This woman kicked my behind! I was seeing noticeable changes every month, but nothing on the scales. I decided in December to throw my scales in the bin, they were depressing me by the fact they weren't moving. The numbers stayed the same.
My biggest turnaround came on January 2nd 2015. Just was coming home from a big family dinner and I was in the middle of a big PCOS flare up. I was huge! I looked like I was in the late stages of pregnancy - no joke (when I manage to find a way to post pics ill show you)
On the third we had to do a grocery shop and from then my new regime started. I have been slowly going towards a Paleo diet, but I find giving up my peanut butter (organic) and legumes hard. I'm no longer eating bread or potatoes, I eat brown rice when I have a rice dish or make cauliflower rice (it is delicious I promise!) I have given up sugar and sweet things, allowing myself once a week (maybe twice) on date night and Sunday to break that. I've traded in my dairy products for soya and I don't have caffeine.
On the 5th January 2015 I started insanity. ... It's scary! But I have to say I love Shaun-T. He is amazing (ill do a post on this soon) this combined with my changes in food have helped me to lose 14lbs so far. (I weigh myself every other week at my parents house ... It's great because they can't consume my thoughts)
As you can see I struggle, I am persevering to change my body and to strive towards a happy and healthy attitude to my body.
Please find me on instagram - laburnett11
progress pictures on instagram - wrkout_mumma
Thank you for taking the time to read and engage with me.
I'll post again soon xx
My name is Lesley-Anne, I am a stay at home to Master fairy, Wife to Mr Fairy and a student of psychology - my end goal is to do my counselling.
I have always been the big kid, the one who was laughed at and teased because I was the 'fat kid' it hurt to hear this, especially from an early age. When I hit puberty I ballooned and nothing I did really helped me to lose weight, so I comfort ate. I was in size 20 clothes at the age of 16. It wasn't until I was 18 or 19 I found out I had Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) it's a hateful, silent, illness that affects more women than I thought. I knew then that it was going to be even harder to lose weight as a result.
I was fed up of the - just exercise and cut down on your food intake, do this ... do that.... - ever heard those words and just wanted to punch those people in the face? Yea, so did I.
In 2009, I fell pregnant - it was a huge shock, I didn't think I could get pregnant and here I was all of a sudden expecting. I lived with my parents and ate weight watchers meals and actually lost 10lbs, but after he was born the weight piled on. No matter what did I couldn't shift the weight. Eat well, walk, no sweets Tec. I couldn't sustain it. To be honest I wasn't in the right head space, I just wanted to enjoy my beautiful baby boy. In fact I gave up!
It wasn't very long after master fairy was born that I found out I was pregnant, another shock! Unfortunately this pregnancy ended and again I piled on the pounds through comfort eating. I had never felt so down and in the dumps, I was not in the mood to lose weight. Over the next year and a half I miscarried 3 more times (a year between the third and fourth) and ate my way through my emotions. In January 2013 I decided to really try and I cut out ... EVERYTHING! I lost 20lbs really quickly and felt like I was getting somewhere, but I also felt so restricted and was not enjoying my food ... not the way you want to be. I also started Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred ... gosh that was hard work! But I could see my body changing.
But my hard work was ruined quite quickly. At the end of February I started Clomid, and felt so awful for the rest of my time on it ( eight months) that what I had lost was back on ... plus extra. It was awful. The medication had made me feel so ill I could hardly make it up the stairs without feeling light headed and dizzy. I was so angry with myself for letting my health get so bad, but I was so determined to get pregnant I didn't care, I didn't care that I ate my weight in biscuits or chocolate, I didn't care that I was stuffing myself into my clothes, I didn't even care that I could hardly walk around my house never mind exercise.
Still I did nothing! I don't understand how I could be like that, how I could let myself go so badly and not care! I hated myself, my body and the situation I was in.
In April 2014 I had an appointment with an IVF doctor (I hadn't been able to get pregnant in over a year and as Clomid didn't work this was the next thing) Mr Fairy and I waited for nearly 2 hours. Only to be told that she wouldn't consider me for IVF until I lost at least 3 stone. I was heartbroken😢 but guess what? ... You guessed it I DID NOTHING!!! Why? Who knows.
Finally in August 2014 I had had enough. I was changing myself. I pulled out my, rather dusty, copy of the 30 Day Shred and I put it on. I started to use my Shred group on Facebook properly, I posted pictures everyday ... believe me they weren't pretty!they were sweaty messes. I posted on Instagram (laburnett11)and I made myself do it everyday!
I worked out 6 days a week, Sunday's off, and I bought more Jillian Michaels DVDs. I was in love. This woman kicked my behind! I was seeing noticeable changes every month, but nothing on the scales. I decided in December to throw my scales in the bin, they were depressing me by the fact they weren't moving. The numbers stayed the same.
My biggest turnaround came on January 2nd 2015. Just was coming home from a big family dinner and I was in the middle of a big PCOS flare up. I was huge! I looked like I was in the late stages of pregnancy - no joke (when I manage to find a way to post pics ill show you)
On the third we had to do a grocery shop and from then my new regime started. I have been slowly going towards a Paleo diet, but I find giving up my peanut butter (organic) and legumes hard. I'm no longer eating bread or potatoes, I eat brown rice when I have a rice dish or make cauliflower rice (it is delicious I promise!) I have given up sugar and sweet things, allowing myself once a week (maybe twice) on date night and Sunday to break that. I've traded in my dairy products for soya and I don't have caffeine.
On the 5th January 2015 I started insanity. ... It's scary! But I have to say I love Shaun-T. He is amazing (ill do a post on this soon) this combined with my changes in food have helped me to lose 14lbs so far. (I weigh myself every other week at my parents house ... It's great because they can't consume my thoughts)
As you can see I struggle, I am persevering to change my body and to strive towards a happy and healthy attitude to my body.
Please find me on instagram - laburnett11
progress pictures on instagram - wrkout_mumma
Thank you for taking the time to read and engage with me.
I'll post again soon xx
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